big hair days

well - today is the day we have been hoping and dreaming for - no not a referral silly - its hot. all winter we dream and imagine what it will be like again when we don't need to wear a gazillion layers just to stay ahead of the big chill.
well, today its hot. my hair is 3 times its usual self - why did i bother to try straightening it??!! I love summer - don't get me wrong - but the humidity is what gets me. We live in an old house and it manages to stay pretty cool - with blinds drawn and ceiling fans at top speed. We are lucky enough to have a window AC unit in our bedroom. Ok - so its summer - get over it.
I am also counting down the days till my first week of vacation. Next week is vacation week #1. At the end of the week, my best gal-pal and i are heading to Collingwood to a ski resort for a few days away. We got in on a package deal that includes a mani/pedi so that is all good. We will hit the beach, some shops and just enjoy some good old R&R. Oh, i can't wait. Ever just know that you really need a vacation - well i was at that point about 2 months ago so it will be so good to get away. This does leave Mike home alone for a few days. I am sure he will be blogging - always seems to sneak a post in when i am not around.
Had a good weekend. We saw the Watoto Children's choir on Saturday night. They are orphaned kids from Uganda. Its a really cool organization that sets up a foster type system where kids live in families with a house mother. Its a really great family model. its something to sit there and hear a 10 year old kid talk about his parents death and the fact that he didn't have food to eat or know what to do. Heartbreaking. The presentation was really well done and boy can those kids sing and dance!! It was great. I think it would be a good org to support! We aren't supporting any work yet in Ethiopia and i think its time to do some investigation and see where we might be able to sponsor some kids who won't get adopted.

p.s.

so, i was just going to post the song lyrics and let them speak for themselves. But as i was re-reading them it really hit me that mostly you would read that and feel bad at the beginning for the kid waiting to find a home - but in my case i feel like i am the one longing to find home with our baby. Does that make sense to anyone else? It really is a longing like that and in a way the baby saves me - i have a deep yearning, a longing for this little baby. Don't get all crazy - i am not a manic person who believes a baby will solve all my problems - but i do believe I have this empty space in my life that this baby is meant to fill. Often people think that adoptive parents are doing the world a huge favour by 'saving' this child from a life of abdonment and misery - but i think the child is doing us more of a favour. I dont know if this is sounding right. I hope you will understand what i am trying to say - but i dont think its coming out right.

When Love Takes You In

I know you’ve heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You’ve heard about a place called home
But there doesn’t seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream

Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in

And somewhere while you’re sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart

And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever
cause this love to lose its hold

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in

Stephen Curtis Chapman

#8

So, here we are at 8 months. I have decided not to whine about the wait (i was going to say 'anymore' - but i can't promise that - maybe should say 'today'). I am going to try to be more positive - no one likes to listen to a whiner - and we still have a long way to go and i am beginning to sound like a broken record. In some ways its hard to believe that we have been waiting 8 months already for our referral. Lets hope we are more than 1/2 way.

On the Saturday it was kind of cool and over cast and so i did some baking and got out a project that needs to be finished. 2 years (yes that's right i said 2 years) ago, i decided that because of our drafty old house, i would make some flannel comforters. I was running out of blankets for our guests. Both my Grandma's made me comforters that i still have and love to use. My Grandma Heise's blanket is so fun to look at. It's made of crimpoline (polyester) squares and i can remember that this piece was one of her dresses, and so on. i have had to replace the flannel back as i loved it to death once already. So, 2 years ago - i bought some flannel and re-learned how to sew. I have one top completely done: And the second top is in the early stages. I need to finish cutting out the squares and do the sewing. You might notice, if you look closely that my squares didn't exactly come out square or sewn straight - it was my joke that the way it was going i would have a round blanket in the end!!! Once the tops are both done, then i will borrow my mom's quilt stands and and tie the tops to a flannel back. My Grandma Cober would say they are 'for warm not for looks'. So, here's to another one of my projects that needs to be finished. its kind of a bad time of year to get going on stuff like this - but who knows - maybe i will actually get done. i know that they look babyish and girlie - but they are actually not intended for baby - but for our guests who have to brave our sub-arctic home (in the winter that is - right now its getting toasty!).

And last but not least - my poppy finally started to bloom today and so did the columbine. Kind of cool. Happy June everyone - hard to believe the month is 1/2 over already. Here's hoping that month 8 will be a turning point and things will go smoother from here on in. cheers.

New Roof

Well ... Brenda's out with some friends tonight, so I'm taking over! It's been a rough week for sleeping in the daytime for me. The roofing crew has been here for the last few days re-roofing the rear section of our house. (It's only been leaking for the past four years, but now was the time to get it done!!) Needless to say, I had to sleep on the couch yesterday, and install my earplugs to try to get some rest! Now the outside of the house looks better, and it shouldn't leak anymore! I had a good day of painting gutters and a few window frames on Saturday, so from the back yard, the house looks much different. I still have two more eaves and two windows to paint, but since I started that project a few years ago, what's the rush!?! We still haven't quite finished the indoor stuff, but that will be for rainy days!

wordless wednesday

what she said...

So - once again my fellow bloggers have come through. Its amazing how someone you don't know and have never met can know exactly how you are feeling. Its been a real blessing to me to have others to share this crazy ride with. If i knew what i was doing i would put a link in to a blogger who just posted exactly how i feel right now. She used a marathon analogy of how this adoption is going down. you can check out on the right "our adoption journey...lawson style" and then her post 'sweet sixteen'. Its really hard. Lately i haven't blogged much cause i don't feel i have much to say... nothing is happening - just waiting which we all know sucks - and i really don't want to be the broken record on how hard it is. its just really hard. So, thanks Krista - you were exactly what i needed today. Its nice to know we are not alone and that someone who is 'there' understands. I have amazing friends who can empathize and listen and be wonderful - but unless you have really been 'there' its hard to fully get it.
Its amazing to me how one word of encouragement can just feed my soul. On the weekend i had a person i barely know say some really ridiculous things to me - how these people can survive without being shot is a miracle - those few comments really wore me down. Why i bother to get upset is beyond me - but unfortunately, i not only got upset but carried it around for a good couple of days. What a good lesson for me - to #1 toughen up and not take things to heart so much and #2 try harder to encourage others.