ticker

I haven't really been paying much attention to the ticker lately. No, my heart is fine :). The ticker is the little gizmo at the top of the blog that tell me how long we have been waiting for a referral. We know that this is only on small part of the 'wait'. We have waited long and hard before we even got to this point, but we won't go there today.
Anyhoo - today the ticker says - one year, one month, one week and one day, waiting for our referral.
I could go on and on about how i despise this wait. How it would be so nice to hold a baby like the sweet little ones i held today. But, i won't complain today. Because (so far) we can still say we are waiting. There was a point this summer where we thought it was done and we thought we were really done - i mean really done. I was trying to wrap my head around the idea of not having any kids. We have talked about it and know it wouldn't be all bad. But i just could not accept that one, it hurt just too much.
So, one year, one month, one week and one day. One more step closer and we are still in the game. One year, one month, one week and one day - I will take that.